She, so young starving for your affections.

You, too interested in cheating on your spouse to and pretending she didn’t exist with one of your suitors to be bothered.

What did you do to her, can you even remember what you did to her?

You were in a fog of emotions that you couldn’t understand, overcome by mental illness that eventually comes for us all.

Her desperation to be loved was so severe she began to hurt herself.   She hoped you would notice.  She hoped that it would solve the riddle of why you couldn’t love her.

You could have gotten help, you could have talked to someone honestly about your own injuries.  Instead you took the way of not dealing with it, blaming everyone else for all of YOUR problems.

You are not solely responsible for her being broken but you played a huge part in it.  Many years later, you get a second chance to make it right.

And you don’t.

Make it right.

You still cannot look at yourself honestly and try to repair what is broken in you.

Going to a new therapist every other month is not how you solve your problems, hoping you’ll finally find the one that will agree with you.  Agree that your entire life is shit because of what other people have done to you.

How many years have you been chasing this elusive, magical therapist that you seem unable to find?  There is no magic kingdom princess.  They told you lies.

Move forward, many years later.

She’s older, and moved beyond you.  She’s wise, she’s learning who she is without you.  She’s going to make it.  She knows you are very sick, she knows the love she spent so much time looking for was right in front of her despite the years of work you put into manipulating her to think otherwise.

“If you do this, I’ll buy you a pony” you lied to her.

She’s already advanced far beyond your range, she’s going to leave you behind.

My words are not meant in evil, I honestly hope that you might turn the bus around and break free from the chains that bind you in order to become the person you know you can be.  If for no other reason, than for her.